Days are very different lately. Each one doesn’t really seem like the last one, and each one has some unique lesson which leaves me at the end of he day wondering how I could be so blind to something so essential. 

Do I take pride in the fact that my life has made such an extreme turn?

I was asked this question six times this week, and I really just wanted to address it.

To be honest I never really think about it. Don’t get me wrong there are days when everything just slows down, and I think to myself, “wow how did I get here?” But otherwise no I really do not take pride in the things I have been so lucky to be a part of. 

I will say though that I am constantly humbled, that I am thankful I can be given a chance to do good for others, make people laugh, and spend so much time doing what I love. I say this very often but I don’t do things out of some sense of guilt, it’s more about a spirit of thankfulness and happiness.I love what I do, that’s why I keep doing it.  

3 years ago today was the day I asked for my life to change.

I don’t know how to express my gratitude in any other way then with my lifestyle. So I’ll just keep doing that until I find a better way.

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Difficulty

I think I’ve always been very naturally unskillful at things. It’s pretty funny because I have never been able to pick up something easily, I was never born with any incredible skill, I have always just, at best, been ordinary. But I love that, I praise God for that. I have always struggled and in that struggle I have seen Him work in my life. 

But I see now that there is still a long ways to go. I want to be better at listening to people, and letting each person feel that they are loved beyond the most impossible of measures. It’s pretty tough, not everyone I’ve met make this easy, but it’s a learning and growing process. Just gotta keep going.

I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.

Philippians 4:13

Why?

Because I am thankful. It’s not some huge sense of anger at myself, or frustration with anyone, it’s because I am happy that I am with my Father. So it’s not because of the obligations to my past actions, those things come up every now and then, but it’s just me thanking God in the only way I know how. I hope this answers the question

useless?

Some people have been talking to me a lot about trying in school, and studying, and some of my accountability partners have gotten angry with me because of the push I make on giving your best effort in classes. I got to be honest I’m not the brightest guy, I’m not substantially gifted in math, science, english, or any other subject in school. But I will say that I do not make light of what has been done in my life, and I will not say that I bring glory to God’s name or bear His name if all I give my effort in are things relating to things I like. 

This isn’t a condemnation of anyone, I have to be honest I wish I showed more respect to my economics teacher. It’s strange, I think it’s easy for me to forget that these teachers are people too. To what right am I entitled to not respect the work they put in with a half effort? 

I really hope I can get better at being a student. I don’t want to make light of the value that God has for these individuals who teach. Please keep me in prayer and accountable so that I may do my best and help others do the same!

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"Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that."

MLKJ 

"And once again I look upon the cross where You died. I’m humbled by Your mercy and I’m broken inside. Once again I thank You, once again I pour out my life."

Matt Redman

"Your testimony is not just how you stopped doing drugs, partying, or whatever. That’s a good introduction, but the core of your testimony is what you’re doing now that you have been saved. It’s about the reaction to grace."